Callie’s Scattered Parts

So many things to do, so little time. Thats what I told myself over and over but in truth - my other self telling me to stop lying to myself - I am making excuses for my procrastination. I have procrastinate and procrastinate and veiling it with unending activities such as watching American Idol, watching movies on Veoh, and  my all time fav, daydreaming. Okie, to be fair to me, I did do a fair amount of work, such as replying emails and planning for work and worrying about stuff, as usual. However, the bigger, the more important things are always last on my list. Why? Because I know deep somewhere that the bigger to-do things are useless  unless I have the tools to execute them, I’m merely wasting my time. So I dread doing it. Every time I psych myself, sitting down, preparing to do the important things, I’ll feel the extra chill from the aircon numbing my fingers and my mind, a total blank.

Writing my blog is one of my to-do things too - not the very important ones - but still, something I want to do and also something I do not. Some stuff are just so private. No point in revealing just so to provide others with a 5 minute entertainment and risking my peace. Hence, the delay in writing this blog. I mean, blog is sort of like an online diary right? And if I cannot be totally honest and having the free reign to write in my diary, what is the point of blogging? Dilemma dilemma ….

Then I decided that there are just so many topics I can go on and on that I can pick any one of them to rant about without having an ex-po-se.

So for my friends and all those who likes to get a peek of me, be entertain by my following thoughts ….

What else other than my current addiction - American Idol. I have followed season 6 since the first audition and have never missed an episode. My TV reception sucks and cable TV is totally out in the area where I live so how is that possible? Well there is always internet AND this particular website where very kind and nothing-better-to-do souls post up movie clips and TV series such as Smallville, Prison Break, Lost, Supernatural and certainly many others. This is where I watch all my episodes of AI - www.dailymotion.com  Wonderful site that doesn’t require any registration. Coming back to AI, I am highly amused, not by the singing but the controversy that surrounds Sanjaya. Personally I think Sanjaya is a nice kid and very original. He had many many bad performances and some of them were almost unlistenable. Definitely, he cannot be compared to his polished counterparts but he has this certain will which hovers somewhere between cowhide skin and brave humour and I have to give him credit for standing there week after week despite the boos in the audience and despite knowing he has become the American joke. I don’t regard him as a joke and I think he is far from that. I’ll tell you whats a joke - a joke is a certain Ms Callie who felt the jellied legs and butterflies-infested stomach and sang horribly in her prom night performance and so utterly embarrassed that for a long long time after, she dared not even sing or try to for that matter. Now, a person who has embarrassed herself and allowed herself to dwell on it and who condemns herself harder than any others is someone who undeniably agreed that she is a joke. Sanjaya is different. He had received a national plague of flake and yet he smiles and remains composed and retorts the judges intelligently. He draws strength from the adverse and turns into a determined I-won’t-let-you-affect-me-or-bring-me-down 17 year old kid. So for all those people  who hate him, who threw insults at him and who spun racist and homosexual stories about him, I think you are only making Sanjaya’s fame a little brighter and keeping me more entertained. So for this season, I am rooting for Sanjaya, not that I believe he can (or should) win AI, but rooting for him to go as far as he can because he deserve applause for doing what most of us are not able to.

Before I end my post here, I’ll like to share with you this other website that lets me watch my movies such as Vanity Fair, Children of Fallen Women, Elfen Lied, Ghost Rider, Azumi and many many other gorgeous movies ALL FREE!!!! However do register so that you can login and switch off the "family filter". Most movies stream online and takes very fast to load, while some require you to download it before you can watch the full movie. To download, you’ll need to install their  "Veoh Player" and this I have done so and not found any problems at all.

www.veoh.com

Cheers to a nation of freebies!!!

~ by auntycallie on April 8, 2007.